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Monday, April 6, 20099:15 PM
Life Is Like An Onion

"Life is like an onion. You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep" - Carl Sandburg

Oh man, I'm peeling this onion way to fast. I've been trying to tell people that I want to make something of my life now, I want to go somewhere, be someone, something in someone else's life. I'm starting to realize that I need to go one layer at a time, enjoy life as it comes to you instead of trying to rush through it. I've started to slow things down, take things one day at a time. Being more organized I am. (Yoda ftw.) I've started to plan out workout routines, when to study for what, and all that stuff. Another stage of evolution for me. Becoming more mature, but at the same time, drifting away from the once-enjoyable aspects of my life. One main thing being you guys; my incredible friends. Each day that passes by, I drift a tiny bit further away. I feel more independent, less of a want or need to be with other people. Do I like it? Is it something I want? I can't really say. Sure, I love being with people, but there are many times when I like being by myself, living life to my beat, singing my life with my words. It's not because I have anything against anyone, and it's not like I'm secretly depressed, I'm just... changing.


"Some things will never be the same."
- TuPac & Ashanti

Damn right they won't be. Things happen, things just, but life still goes on. We all need to realize this, that sooner or later, we will grow and accept all of the painful and unfortunate incidents that occur in our life, and that we can't go on regreting decisions we made. Speaking of time, time is going by way too fast. As slowly as I do want to peel this onion of life, I need it to be in time for the steak. Maybe that's the problem. I'm too "want-everything-to-be-precise-and-perfect." I think I should just try to let things happen, but that's just not how I do things. If I take things too slowly, I'll miss out on too many opportunities. But if I keep going at the pace I very recently was, I'll pass up too many opportunities. Weep is something I haven't done in a while though. I've felt like it, just because of how overwhelming life situations are. Just when you feel like you've reached the bottom and are about to shatter into a million little pieces, there's that one special friend who happens to be calling your phone, just to check in. Or talks to you for what seems like endless, telling you how much time you have to do what you want, and just talking you through life in generally, even when you think you are annoying the fuck out of them ; ) . Oh man, how fortunate we all are to have those kinds of friends.


On the other hand, all the things to look forward to. Myrtle Beach coming up, roughly a month and a bit from now, and I'm totally stoked. Also, my dad's surprise 40th birthday part, this Friday. Oh my fuucking doG, I am so pumped for that too. Haven't had a family gathering in a while. SO STOKEDDDD :) And if you happen to somehow know my dad, don't tell him alright? It's a surprise.

Well, I've decided, like I said earlier, that I am changing and experiencing new things. And that one main thing that I've started to REALLY see is how important friends are. How much of an impact even just one can have one you.

"What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other."
- George Eliot

Thanks to people like you, CSM, SR, JM, JA, KS, JMA, SB, PB, JT, MM, RCT, EMC, CD, RC
I make it through.

Well, I'll leave you with that, and probably start blogging whenever I get the chance. Sorry if my ideas are all over the place, but hey, you are choosing to read this, so don't hate :)
Have a good night
M Aquino

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